The whole Island is watching.

Managing expectations.
Nothing I was expecting happened ever since I commissioned other than being dumped in Tekong.
I thought I would be posted back to Ninja, I ended up in Viper. I thought I would go roving and attached to Guards but I would permanently stuck in Tekong.
I thought I would be a normal PC and enjoy life and now I'm 2IC.
I thought I would be busy raising future commanders (officers and sergeants) but now.... I'm stuck with PesC9 (uber medically unfit) recruits till Kingdom come.
I would never experience the joy of leading a fighting platoon again. Before I knew it, my experimental first batch will become my only batch. 01/07... I miss you guys!! sigh.
Sometimes I want to ask God why he places me in so much circumstances. MY company is now going through its trail of circumstances... and the whole island is watching. Any wrong move and everything that has been built up before will crumble down . God, I'm intimidated. I dont really need factual advice, I just want solid faith and assurance.
I dont want this to screw up.
I will be confined again. back in around a month?

mmm?

I'm such a geek. Let's face it, I really have no life :)

oh my 天!oh my 天!oh my 天!

Propaganda

nice yet edgy

Lol. The first few seconds are the most accurate. The rest.... well... :)

things sound eeriely familiar for me the (-05:30) mark onwards

3 different kinds of propagandas all from different time spans. Observe. All are edgy in their own way.

Hmmm.

Thanks for the hint.

not one, not two. but 3

I think there has been too much emoness around here... so I'm reverting back to slapstick humor for the while

Frames

NLP: Neuro Linguistic Programming









Frame concept.
Our mind operates in frames of visual content.










The Shiny Lights. The Blinding sight and the weird sense that we'll still be going to the same econs lecture tmr. We all know its not going to happen, but the night was still young and so is our dreams.











This is a frame captured. Out of focus, the sleepiness and the disorientation of decision (xept now I'm the one observing). The feel of sitting on benches again, late at night. All so familiar but now, there are no books and bottles of Ice Tea.... and no silly Mars Bars.




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Sometimes a smile ruins it all. But its a frame of us fooling around and
pretending to be emo models. I want to fool around once more.






Let's watch Charlie & the chocolate factory at 2 am! Or perhaps run down the roofs of ACJC at night. How about taking a dip at the swimming complex (or
talking about it until we got screwed by ms.Cref) ? Or running headlong into
Manhattan FIsh market at 4 am before screaming our way out with a tripped
alarm?





I want to be an idiot once more before my time of legal excuses
runs out. I was a retard when I was younger but I should have took the
opportunity and acted like one. Now Its too late.




















and of course... for the last FINAL time:

Its like Dark Chocolate

It was so abrupt when you brought it up again.
The rush of opening a box that
I tried to bury for the past two years.
I haven't cracked so badly since the finale of June camp
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I have the emotional weakness for bittersweet moments when I am confused whether to be
merry or weeping. I'll send it to you the next time we meet along with the Time Travller's Wife.

Best Comeback in days

he: me.
" I don't like the way you put your things around(aggressive look)"
'-and I don't like the way you deal with people.(smirk)'
"But did you know that when I was in unit, we fuck the specs-"
'And that is why units are stuck with missions with wooden targets and invisible bullets while we train real recruits"

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. This is not an insult to friends in unit, just those who think that they are one-bar generals

NS40

Its sad how the only reason why I'm in the CBD is because of duty.

Paradox

People who believe in the theory of determinism all ground their basis of belief that everything can be broken down into logical steps of cause and effect. Anything and everything can be explained via the science of methodical reasoning. Be it the mundane choices of life or the cosmic creation of the universe... everything can be explained.

But I think we should highlight something. The nature of logic is paradoxical. The more we dwell into the complex structures of deductions, the more illogical things become. I'm not implying an big words like 'chaos theory' or anything (this theory operates in a different context altogether). Life is just illogically logical. Life is still one big paradox if we try to comprehend everything.

Trying to make sense of our chaotic circumstances is like trying to look to the bottom of a murky lake. We can study and make deductions about how the suspended soil substrates swirl near the surface. But no matter how hard we look, we'll never know what lies beneath and here comes the paradox once again.

Emotions and logic are very alike too. They're both paradoxical and self-conflicting.

I didn't take this photo with this explanation in mind. But the paradox of the Tilapias has been stuck in my mind lately.

Tilapias are one of the most common food fish in Singapore. They can be found in almost every fresh water body. However, most of us do not know this. Tilapias never existed on this island a mere 70 years ago. In better English, this local fish isn't a local at all, it was introduced.

In fact, it was introduced in 1943 to be exact by the Japanese soldiers occupying this island.

Documentations show that this Javanese fish is well liked by the then rampaging Japanese Soldiers and thus was introduced into our tiny island.

Needless to say, many senior folks still address this fish as the Japanese fish and refuse to eat them as it symbolises the Japanese occupation. So now... we hate an Indonesian Fish? Its logical yet illogical at the same time.

Paradox. sometimes we do or say things that doesn't make sense. Deep down, we wish for things to turn out the other way, yet we coax ourselves into choosing the profoundly less stupid outcome.

It is time to come clean. I am not sure why we were placed in such situations. Painful circumstances that leave me licking my wounds months down the road. But no matter what happens, I know its by Lord's will. You make sense out of all the silly things I have done. I have and I will keep my promise to God and all complications will be tied up before the setting sun.

In the same way I've kept my promise to God, I will keep my promise of friendship to you. I will be there. Despite the weathering, erosion and other forms of change, I will be in situ.

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here is a mid-way comment to 12/16/2005.
I am not regretting this.

What do you mean you forgot?

commissioned but still getting raped.