Return of the First Intakers...
posted by F I S at
9:49 pm
3/28/2005
3/27/2005
Casyreth Wassup
Hokay, I know I haven't blog in a while although the past few days have been the most blog-worthy days in the season, but I was really pooped out and sick of the computer.
Update! Orientation 2 (aka. 02) is finally finished. Basically, the storyline goes (wow finally I can blog this out) about how the The Nexus of Tiripsca has been renewed, from Orientation 1, however the flame has began to wane due to the greed, lust and avarice of man. As a result, the seer (Tan Li Feng) summons 3 Cavalons (clans) that were not involved in the great battle earlier. These 3 clans were pure in blood as they have not shed any blood and hence only they were fit to refuel the flame. By the way, the Nexus is the power source of all life in Tiripsca.
These 3 clans were
Aurelis-- Ruled by the warlords (Zhizeng and Zhiguang) & their golden talons
Casyreth -- Ruled by the Duke & Duchess ( Judy and I) & their blue flame
Jarnier -- Ruled by the tweenies (twins) (Karen & Ian) & their Red Rose
Basically in the end, noone is pure as everyone fought. But the only way left is through LOVE. and So Tiripsca is restored once again.
This is my first time taking on such a public role and if there are any Casyreth people out there reading this now. THANK YOU. Really guys, thank you. I'll be honest, you guys were cold in the begining & I do not blame you guys. Being placed in a school you are not used to or even wish to be in. But you guys really warmed up later, in fact, you guys really Burned like our flame. And maybe that is why we were the only cavalon to have won at least once. heh heh
Of course, Casyreth is not as fiery as my beloved Zirkai. aww Man... when you guys popped in to help us in teaching the dance. My heart completely melts in times like these :-)
These orientation was also the first time in my life I stayed up for 24 hours straight (38 including the orientation programme) to do our orientation Videos. I'm so happy but tired.... so hence I am so sick of com. I have a whole list of people to thanks
will blog it up later
Update! Orientation 2 (aka. 02) is finally finished. Basically, the storyline goes (wow finally I can blog this out) about how the The Nexus of Tiripsca has been renewed, from Orientation 1, however the flame has began to wane due to the greed, lust and avarice of man. As a result, the seer (Tan Li Feng) summons 3 Cavalons (clans) that were not involved in the great battle earlier. These 3 clans were pure in blood as they have not shed any blood and hence only they were fit to refuel the flame. By the way, the Nexus is the power source of all life in Tiripsca.
These 3 clans were
Aurelis-- Ruled by the warlords (Zhizeng and Zhiguang) & their golden talons
Casyreth -- Ruled by the Duke & Duchess ( Judy and I) & their blue flame
Jarnier -- Ruled by the tweenies (twins) (Karen & Ian) & their Red Rose
Basically in the end, noone is pure as everyone fought. But the only way left is through LOVE. and So Tiripsca is restored once again.
This is my first time taking on such a public role and if there are any Casyreth people out there reading this now. THANK YOU. Really guys, thank you. I'll be honest, you guys were cold in the begining & I do not blame you guys. Being placed in a school you are not used to or even wish to be in. But you guys really warmed up later, in fact, you guys really Burned like our flame. And maybe that is why we were the only cavalon to have won at least once. heh heh
Of course, Casyreth is not as fiery as my beloved Zirkai. aww Man... when you guys popped in to help us in teaching the dance. My heart completely melts in times like these :-)
These orientation was also the first time in my life I stayed up for 24 hours straight (38 including the orientation programme) to do our orientation Videos. I'm so happy but tired.... so hence I am so sick of com. I have a whole list of people to thanks
will blog it up later
posted by F I S at
9:41 pm
3/21/2005
Traffic Accident (incident of the midnight dog)
It was about an hour or so ago...
There I was, mind drifting among the words printed before me. Silently, drifting when a screech pierced my bouyancy. Far left! a screech dragged to the right. Scrambled I got up and ran to the balcony and there it was;
A black car braked in the middle of the empty road. A dark fluid flowing beneath its wheels. I saw a tail.
Yep, I saw traffic accident at what? 2 frickin am? It was very noisy and I didnt even clicked that it was a doga-kill run until later. Much later. The pool of blood is still there, soaking and basking in the dead of night. I'll pray for whatever that was ran over (just in case if it was someone).
Shudder. Hope I see no blood tomorrow at school.
There I was, mind drifting among the words printed before me. Silently, drifting when a screech pierced my bouyancy. Far left! a screech dragged to the right. Scrambled I got up and ran to the balcony and there it was;
A black car braked in the middle of the empty road. A dark fluid flowing beneath its wheels. I saw a tail.
Yep, I saw traffic accident at what? 2 frickin am? It was very noisy and I didnt even clicked that it was a doga-kill run until later. Much later. The pool of blood is still there, soaking and basking in the dead of night. I'll pray for whatever that was ran over (just in case if it was someone).
Shudder. Hope I see no blood tomorrow at school.
posted by F I S at
3:30 am
3/20/2005
God, Mind and BGR
It has been a very long holiday. Sadly, of all the 7 days given to me, none of which I spent in a constructive way. I have not completed any work yet. I'll be damned tomorrow.
Yet, it was within this hectic holiday that God's peace found me. I snapped a few times, some at home, some in the council, some in the zoo and even once in the MRT (ooo ho ho, you should have seen THAT). Ironically, despite my messed up state of mind, I felt God's strong, firm hands scraping my fried-out brain off from the floor and placing it back in my hands. ( for me to put them back in my head myself).
Throughout this time, I felt God talking to me in various ways. Firstly, its my way of life. He nudged me to join the Zoo for a reason. To learn the difference between slacking and chilling. I have always been very uptight towards life, panicking if the plan in my head goes off tangent by a small inch. I am worried about things not turning out the best that they could be.
But things NEVER go according to plan in a zoo tour, some animals you expect go into hiding, others that you never expected to find pops up. "Chill", go with the the flow, but do not go into the flow.
Maybe that is the main difference between chilling and slacking. "chillers" are those who go with the flow, keeping in full attention of their surroundings, making the best of it and yet keeping a cool head. "Slackers" are those who believe that they are chillers, hoping that the flow can carry them all the way but end up drowning in it. Zoo keepers are chillers, working with the unpredictability of animals but yet sticking to the rules of protocol. God, give me the power and wisdom to be a chiller.
Another thing that keep popping me in the face in the issue of BGR. Over the hols, I met up with some old friends to find out that almost 90% of them are attached. (can't help it, Barker boys are just so attractive o_o) In fact, some of them even ask me why have I not been attached at all since the beggining of time when most of them went 'trying out' from sec 2.
I told them that opportunity has never been on my side. To which they respond:
That we have to go out, find and chase.
Now this really bothers me. If finding your 'significant Other' is as simple as shopping for a pair of new shoes, in which time & effort = money, can it really be 'significant'? The commitments of emotions and time have been completely ommited. What God painted for me to see is perhaps this:
*ding **ding* *hey Kids, its Analogy time again!!*
Getting a BGR... is like buying a fish.
Anyone can get attached just as how anyone can buy a fish. If desperate enough, anyone can just walk into a fish store, whoop out some money and take home a fish in a plastic bag. If desperate enough, anyone can just find a desperate 'other half' and get attached. It's really very easy.
__ However, whether the fish keeper is able to build a bond with the fish is a completely different matter.
Each and every individual species and specimen of fish is different. In order for a fish keeper to build bond, he/she must know the characteristics of that fish then find the special connection that links the two of them together. During this course of discovery, plenty of emotions, efforts and time is commited. Until the aquarist finds that link, his/her perception of the fish is but a mere shadow of an image painted by aquarium guide books.
Getting truly attached in finding that relationship or link , not buying or finding the mate.
I have never really chased maybe cause I don't think I am capable of that emotional investment yet. I have been frustrated every now and then over this, but it finally dawned upon me: I shall leave it all to God because I am not ready to commit yet.
Yet, it was within this hectic holiday that God's peace found me. I snapped a few times, some at home, some in the council, some in the zoo and even once in the MRT (ooo ho ho, you should have seen THAT). Ironically, despite my messed up state of mind, I felt God's strong, firm hands scraping my fried-out brain off from the floor and placing it back in my hands. ( for me to put them back in my head myself).
Throughout this time, I felt God talking to me in various ways. Firstly, its my way of life. He nudged me to join the Zoo for a reason. To learn the difference between slacking and chilling. I have always been very uptight towards life, panicking if the plan in my head goes off tangent by a small inch. I am worried about things not turning out the best that they could be.
But things NEVER go according to plan in a zoo tour, some animals you expect go into hiding, others that you never expected to find pops up. "Chill", go with the the flow, but do not go into the flow.
Maybe that is the main difference between chilling and slacking. "chillers" are those who go with the flow, keeping in full attention of their surroundings, making the best of it and yet keeping a cool head. "Slackers" are those who believe that they are chillers, hoping that the flow can carry them all the way but end up drowning in it. Zoo keepers are chillers, working with the unpredictability of animals but yet sticking to the rules of protocol. God, give me the power and wisdom to be a chiller.
Another thing that keep popping me in the face in the issue of BGR. Over the hols, I met up with some old friends to find out that almost 90% of them are attached. (can't help it, Barker boys are just so attractive o_o) In fact, some of them even ask me why have I not been attached at all since the beggining of time when most of them went 'trying out' from sec 2.
I told them that opportunity has never been on my side. To which they respond:
That we have to go out, find and chase.
Now this really bothers me. If finding your 'significant Other' is as simple as shopping for a pair of new shoes, in which time & effort = money, can it really be 'significant'? The commitments of emotions and time have been completely ommited. What God painted for me to see is perhaps this:
*ding **ding* *hey Kids, its Analogy time again!!*
Getting a BGR... is like buying a fish.
Anyone can get attached just as how anyone can buy a fish. If desperate enough, anyone can just walk into a fish store, whoop out some money and take home a fish in a plastic bag. If desperate enough, anyone can just find a desperate 'other half' and get attached. It's really very easy.
__ However, whether the fish keeper is able to build a bond with the fish is a completely different matter.
Each and every individual species and specimen of fish is different. In order for a fish keeper to build bond, he/she must know the characteristics of that fish then find the special connection that links the two of them together. During this course of discovery, plenty of emotions, efforts and time is commited. Until the aquarist finds that link, his/her perception of the fish is but a mere shadow of an image painted by aquarium guide books.
Getting truly attached in finding that relationship or link , not buying or finding the mate.
I have never really chased maybe cause I don't think I am capable of that emotional investment yet. I have been frustrated every now and then over this, but it finally dawned upon me: I shall leave it all to God because I am not ready to commit yet.
posted by F I S at
11:00 am
3/16/2005
3/15/2005
Something
The past 2 has been happy. Bright colours that dripped from the sky painted the world around me. They melt on my hands, flow into my ears, swirl in my head. Yet, I sense something in the wind.
This may sound like an old cree Indian movie, but I sense something in the passing breeze. It feels weird, just weird. I see a shadow in every glimpse of the Sun. I catch a figure in every passing car. Every dog I see, stares back in silence, as if they are waiting. The nights are dead, not a single sound in the air. At the zoo, lemurs and butterflies pause briefly before me, in anticipation of something. The fishes hover in idleness.
Somethings wrong, I feel it.
This may sound like an old cree Indian movie, but I sense something in the passing breeze. It feels weird, just weird. I see a shadow in every glimpse of the Sun. I catch a figure in every passing car. Every dog I see, stares back in silence, as if they are waiting. The nights are dead, not a single sound in the air. At the zoo, lemurs and butterflies pause briefly before me, in anticipation of something. The fishes hover in idleness.
Somethings wrong, I feel it.
posted by F I S at
10:32 pm
3/14/2005
Beautiful Day
'See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light'
___________________________
It was a beautiful day. ---By U2
My dearest friend Tim finally got the birthday bash he deserved after so long. I was not there, but I heard about the smiles, the laughs and the "strip". *wink* I was not there, and yet the simple description of it paints a smile across my face. Hope this means a turning point for not only you, but for all of us.
Its times like this that makes me feel so warm and cuddly that I can finally crawl out of my shell. metaphorically (nonsensically) speaking, of course. Actually, its really like a movie in the cinema. So often, we tell ourselves that life is mundane and sad, lacking surreal technicolour mix found in all those sappy shows.
Yet, if we all just look just a bit closer, we find that all the colour in the cinema screen is nothing but a reflection of what we can find all around us. For all the joy you painted in our lives, Tim... you deserve this one alright!
on the other hand
Today was my first day of work at the zoo. Thank you God. Seriously THANK YOU. This opportunity is such a blessing. I totally love it working at the zoo. Although today was only the training and briefings, I can already feel the power and urge to do my work. I'm an 'animal conservation ambassador' by the way, alias 'juvenile unpaid tour guide'.
Today, we went through 2 tour routes, an equatorial-forest based one and a Euthopia-based one. I think I definately prefer the rainforest much better.
Oh yes, since I am a volunteer, volunteer= working = staff = staff food discount = 35% food discount = 35% discount off Ben & Jerry's Praise Jesus! He lives I tell you!
I'll end today off with a little "comedy" that happend during the 'fragile forest' trial tour:
***black and yellow butterfly flutters between Instructor Ivy and us***
Ivy: ___ Hey guys, pls pay attention. This is the Raja bird winged butterfly, one of the most expensive butterflies in the world. Proudly, we are among the very few locations in the world that possess this beautiful invertibrate.
*** Butterfly flutters behind Ivy ***
*** and slams into a spider web behind her ***
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light'
___________________________
It was a beautiful day. ---By U2
My dearest friend Tim finally got the birthday bash he deserved after so long. I was not there, but I heard about the smiles, the laughs and the "strip". *wink* I was not there, and yet the simple description of it paints a smile across my face. Hope this means a turning point for not only you, but for all of us.
Its times like this that makes me feel so warm and cuddly that I can finally crawl out of my shell. metaphorically (nonsensically) speaking, of course. Actually, its really like a movie in the cinema. So often, we tell ourselves that life is mundane and sad, lacking surreal technicolour mix found in all those sappy shows.
Yet, if we all just look just a bit closer, we find that all the colour in the cinema screen is nothing but a reflection of what we can find all around us. For all the joy you painted in our lives, Tim... you deserve this one alright!
on the other hand
Today was my first day of work at the zoo. Thank you God. Seriously THANK YOU. This opportunity is such a blessing. I totally love it working at the zoo. Although today was only the training and briefings, I can already feel the power and urge to do my work. I'm an 'animal conservation ambassador' by the way, alias 'juvenile unpaid tour guide'.
Today, we went through 2 tour routes, an equatorial-forest based one and a Euthopia-based one. I think I definately prefer the rainforest much better.
Oh yes, since I am a volunteer, volunteer= working = staff = staff food discount = 35% food discount = 35% discount off Ben & Jerry's Praise Jesus! He lives I tell you!
I'll end today off with a little "comedy" that happend during the 'fragile forest' trial tour:
***black and yellow butterfly flutters between Instructor Ivy and us***
Ivy: ___ Hey guys, pls pay attention. This is the Raja bird winged butterfly, one of the most expensive butterflies in the world. Proudly, we are among the very few locations in the world that possess this beautiful invertibrate.
*** Butterfly flutters behind Ivy ***
*** and slams into a spider web behind her ***
posted by F I S at
8:39 pm
3/09/2005
3/07/2005
______ song
Maybe tonight we'll get back together
sound the alarms, break all the levers
These streets are ours
Our anthem rings
You'd know the truth
if these walls could sing
Amateur youth sling down the signs
Gather the masses, friends of mine
I've got your back if you've got my hand
This isn't over it just began
If this isn't love
this is the closest I've ever been
Do you think we have a chance tonight?
as streetlights sing on ______ song
And now it all stops at this
We could take it all if only we would risk
You can be what you can concieve
Red letters kill your disbelief
We all make mistakes sometimes
We all fail but we stand tonight
Look past, learn, and move on
We're all here, you're not the only one
If this isn't lovethis is the closest I've ever been
Do you think we have a chance tonight?
as streetlights sing on ______ song
* By Anberlin
*I am such a fool, please forgive me. I treasure your friendship more than ever now...
sound the alarms, break all the levers
These streets are ours
Our anthem rings
You'd know the truth
if these walls could sing
Amateur youth sling down the signs
Gather the masses, friends of mine
I've got your back if you've got my hand
This isn't over it just began
If this isn't love
this is the closest I've ever been
Do you think we have a chance tonight?
as streetlights sing on ______ song
And now it all stops at this
We could take it all if only we would risk
You can be what you can concieve
Red letters kill your disbelief
We all make mistakes sometimes
We all fail but we stand tonight
Look past, learn, and move on
We're all here, you're not the only one
If this isn't lovethis is the closest I've ever been
Do you think we have a chance tonight?
as streetlights sing on ______ song
* By Anberlin
*I am such a fool, please forgive me. I treasure your friendship more than ever now...
posted by F I S at
9:15 pm
3/06/2005
3/05/2005
Post-production Blues
Arts Night Was GRAET! Can't believe I didnt screw up bhangra all that much. (not all that much) And not only Bhangra, everything else, the dance, the emmceeing, the overall flow of things. Truly, Arts night 2005 surpassed 2004! (just wished that I did not leave my camera in my bag, I can be so brainless at times)
Now, my back hurts from spinning Laura and Audrey.... which shouldnt have happened if I wasn't so rushed in everything. Like all my deary friends said: I was too nervous. And of course ThhannNNk Yoouu to all my lovely friends and all who came down :-) . I was so famished after the show that I ate sooo much at swensens lates... bleh. We also got back our chinese results (Which I got an impossible C5) Praise the Lord, even my chinese tutor thought I was bulling her.
But not all was 'butter-and-cream'y yesterday. . A dear friend of mine had a really bad day and I felt so helpless in counselling him. All I could do is hold his hands and watch in plain futility. I could do nothing, or maybe I chose not to do anything. as of this moment, I could really not tell...
Hey buddy, I am never good with public signs of affection, but be strong. I have yet to go through a trial of life like yours and hence I cannot give fake words of experience. All I can do for now, is to ask you to remain as strong as you always have been and to remind you that your friends are around you whenever you need help.
Now, my back hurts from spinning Laura and Audrey.... which shouldnt have happened if I wasn't so rushed in everything. Like all my deary friends said: I was too nervous. And of course ThhannNNk Yoouu to all my lovely friends and all who came down :-) . I was so famished after the show that I ate sooo much at swensens lates... bleh. We also got back our chinese results (Which I got an impossible C5) Praise the Lord, even my chinese tutor thought I was bulling her.
But not all was 'butter-and-cream'y yesterday. . A dear friend of mine had a really bad day and I felt so helpless in counselling him. All I could do is hold his hands and watch in plain futility. I could do nothing, or maybe I chose not to do anything. as of this moment, I could really not tell...
Hey buddy, I am never good with public signs of affection, but be strong. I have yet to go through a trial of life like yours and hence I cannot give fake words of experience. All I can do for now, is to ask you to remain as strong as you always have been and to remind you that your friends are around you whenever you need help.
posted by F I S at
5:13 pm
Arts Night
I so should not have left my cam in my bag last night. I don't think I'll ever wear an indian bandana again for quite a while.
posted by F I S at
2:12 am