God, Mind and BGR
It has been a very long holiday. Sadly, of all the 7 days given to me, none of which I spent in a constructive way. I have not completed any work yet. I'll be damned tomorrow.
Yet, it was within this hectic holiday that God's peace found me. I snapped a few times, some at home, some in the council, some in the zoo and even once in the MRT (ooo ho ho, you should have seen THAT). Ironically, despite my messed up state of mind, I felt God's strong, firm hands scraping my fried-out brain off from the floor and placing it back in my hands. ( for me to put them back in my head myself).
Throughout this time, I felt God talking to me in various ways. Firstly, its my way of life. He nudged me to join the Zoo for a reason. To learn the difference between slacking and chilling. I have always been very uptight towards life, panicking if the plan in my head goes off tangent by a small inch. I am worried about things not turning out the best that they could be.
But things NEVER go according to plan in a zoo tour, some animals you expect go into hiding, others that you never expected to find pops up. "Chill", go with the the flow, but do not go into the flow.
Maybe that is the main difference between chilling and slacking. "chillers" are those who go with the flow, keeping in full attention of their surroundings, making the best of it and yet keeping a cool head. "Slackers" are those who believe that they are chillers, hoping that the flow can carry them all the way but end up drowning in it. Zoo keepers are chillers, working with the unpredictability of animals but yet sticking to the rules of protocol. God, give me the power and wisdom to be a chiller.
Another thing that keep popping me in the face in the issue of BGR. Over the hols, I met up with some old friends to find out that almost 90% of them are attached. (can't help it, Barker boys are just so attractive o_o) In fact, some of them even ask me why have I not been attached at all since the beggining of time when most of them went 'trying out' from sec 2.
I told them that opportunity has never been on my side. To which they respond:
That we have to go out, find and chase.
Now this really bothers me. If finding your 'significant Other' is as simple as shopping for a pair of new shoes, in which time & effort = money, can it really be 'significant'? The commitments of emotions and time have been completely ommited. What God painted for me to see is perhaps this:
*ding **ding* *hey Kids, its Analogy time again!!*
Getting a BGR... is like buying a fish.
Anyone can get attached just as how anyone can buy a fish. If desperate enough, anyone can just walk into a fish store, whoop out some money and take home a fish in a plastic bag. If desperate enough, anyone can just find a desperate 'other half' and get attached. It's really very easy.
__ However, whether the fish keeper is able to build a bond with the fish is a completely different matter.
Each and every individual species and specimen of fish is different. In order for a fish keeper to build bond, he/she must know the characteristics of that fish then find the special connection that links the two of them together. During this course of discovery, plenty of emotions, efforts and time is commited. Until the aquarist finds that link, his/her perception of the fish is but a mere shadow of an image painted by aquarium guide books.
Getting truly attached in finding that relationship or link , not buying or finding the mate.
I have never really chased maybe cause I don't think I am capable of that emotional investment yet. I have been frustrated every now and then over this, but it finally dawned upon me: I shall leave it all to God because I am not ready to commit yet.
Yet, it was within this hectic holiday that God's peace found me. I snapped a few times, some at home, some in the council, some in the zoo and even once in the MRT (ooo ho ho, you should have seen THAT). Ironically, despite my messed up state of mind, I felt God's strong, firm hands scraping my fried-out brain off from the floor and placing it back in my hands. ( for me to put them back in my head myself).
Throughout this time, I felt God talking to me in various ways. Firstly, its my way of life. He nudged me to join the Zoo for a reason. To learn the difference between slacking and chilling. I have always been very uptight towards life, panicking if the plan in my head goes off tangent by a small inch. I am worried about things not turning out the best that they could be.
But things NEVER go according to plan in a zoo tour, some animals you expect go into hiding, others that you never expected to find pops up. "Chill", go with the the flow, but do not go into the flow.
Maybe that is the main difference between chilling and slacking. "chillers" are those who go with the flow, keeping in full attention of their surroundings, making the best of it and yet keeping a cool head. "Slackers" are those who believe that they are chillers, hoping that the flow can carry them all the way but end up drowning in it. Zoo keepers are chillers, working with the unpredictability of animals but yet sticking to the rules of protocol. God, give me the power and wisdom to be a chiller.
Another thing that keep popping me in the face in the issue of BGR. Over the hols, I met up with some old friends to find out that almost 90% of them are attached. (can't help it, Barker boys are just so attractive o_o) In fact, some of them even ask me why have I not been attached at all since the beggining of time when most of them went 'trying out' from sec 2.
I told them that opportunity has never been on my side. To which they respond:
That we have to go out, find and chase.
Now this really bothers me. If finding your 'significant Other' is as simple as shopping for a pair of new shoes, in which time & effort = money, can it really be 'significant'? The commitments of emotions and time have been completely ommited. What God painted for me to see is perhaps this:
*ding **ding* *hey Kids, its Analogy time again!!*
Getting a BGR... is like buying a fish.
Anyone can get attached just as how anyone can buy a fish. If desperate enough, anyone can just walk into a fish store, whoop out some money and take home a fish in a plastic bag. If desperate enough, anyone can just find a desperate 'other half' and get attached. It's really very easy.
__ However, whether the fish keeper is able to build a bond with the fish is a completely different matter.
Each and every individual species and specimen of fish is different. In order for a fish keeper to build bond, he/she must know the characteristics of that fish then find the special connection that links the two of them together. During this course of discovery, plenty of emotions, efforts and time is commited. Until the aquarist finds that link, his/her perception of the fish is but a mere shadow of an image painted by aquarium guide books.
Getting truly attached in finding that relationship or link , not buying or finding the mate.
I have never really chased maybe cause I don't think I am capable of that emotional investment yet. I have been frustrated every now and then over this, but it finally dawned upon me: I shall leave it all to God because I am not ready to commit yet.
posted by F I S at
11:00 am
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