Another senseless Filler entry
posted by F I S at
1:21 pm
2/28/2008
2/26/2008
So sudden
Around mid last week,
I recieved word from Yang-Shen that one of our ex-classmates passed away.
I'm currently looking at his facebook profile, and I'm still in shock.
I was never that close, but I did warm up to him over time.
But now, he left so suddenly. Just popped. And gone.
I seems like a distant memory when I think my days in Barker Road, but when I put his face into my memories, everything goes from sepia to colour, from fuzzy to a crispy clarity.
The funny thing was, even though I know you went overseas, I always assumed that our class would reunite, laugh over our youngers days in shorts. Now, our class will never become complete again.
I've just stumbled across a wall-to-wall conversation he had with a mutual friend of ours just weeks before he passed on.
I really don't know how to react to this.
Rest In Peace dude.
I recieved word from Yang-Shen that one of our ex-classmates passed away.
I'm currently looking at his facebook profile, and I'm still in shock.
I was never that close, but I did warm up to him over time.
But now, he left so suddenly. Just popped. And gone.
I seems like a distant memory when I think my days in Barker Road, but when I put his face into my memories, everything goes from sepia to colour, from fuzzy to a crispy clarity.
The funny thing was, even though I know you went overseas, I always assumed that our class would reunite, laugh over our youngers days in shorts. Now, our class will never become complete again.
I've just stumbled across a wall-to-wall conversation he had with a mutual friend of ours just weeks before he passed on.
I really don't know how to react to this.
Rest In Peace dude.
posted by F I S at
8:14 pm
Don't compete with me
Mentor:
Why was the fish so shy? ------ 'cause she saw the ocean's bottom!
Me:
Why did the tomato blush? ------ 'Cause he saw the salad dressing
Why was the fish so shy? ------ 'cause she saw the ocean's bottom!
Me:
Why did the tomato blush? ------ 'Cause he saw the salad dressing
posted by F I S at
5:12 pm
2/17/2008
Two Goodies on one day!
Taken originally from The Straits Times
Home Forum on the 13th February 2008.
I normally do not partake in flaming, but that day was too good to be left unravelled. People should seriously take some time to actually think about what they putting into the forums.
First up on the left. There is a recent craze in Singapore for selling manually tatooed mollies (chubbier cousins of the guppies) to obtain 4D numbers. I violently object to this, but thats another story. So Retnam here wonders if we could breed these fishes to be placed into stagnant water to consume mosquito larvaes.-
WAIT-
You place fishes into stagnant pools of water instead of just pouring the water out? In an urban environment.... this is not feasible as its a plain waste of money. Furthermore... can you imagine if there were no more larvaes in the roof drains? I dont think our lovely heartlanders will be feeding these government sponsored fishes in hard to reach places. So... imagine schools of starved, decomposing dead fishes.... not very nice. It is still slightly plausible in our reserve areas... but we would be upsetting the ecosystem for no reason... since noone lives in these areas. Basically... Retnam.... its a good idea that rolls off the tongue... but its simply not logical.
As for the comment on the Right.
WONG FOOK SENG: Get your basic facts right before writing in.
1. Our reservoir is a holding area for raw untreated water.
2.Our reservoir water is not potable as it is. it is treated BEFORE it goes to your tap.
3.Our reservoir is surrounded by nature reserve areas in Singapore.
4. MANY animals in the reserve urinate,defeacate,die, decompose in the reservoir on the daily basis.
I didnt know AhMeng personally, nor do I claim to.Thus, I am in no position to tell you to give Ahmeng the respect she deserves. But, do try thinking more about the things you write down, because you are publicly broadcasting your level of intelligence.
>>This is a bit belated<<
R.I.P Ah Meng.
Not only a Greater Ape, but a Greater Singaporean. :)
posted by F I S at
5:13 pm
2/14/2008
Happy Valentines (II) confessions / Primal instincts
Its been a while since I last gave a real blog entry as youtube videos are just fillers to me (like the Bounto Arc on Bleach... and the whole Naruto series).
So Happy Valentines everyone.
Valentines day has always been a very significant date for me and suprisingly enough, it is the first Valentines day in which I'm not working. I've noticed that I have blogged consistently, and thus, I have captured my frame of mind every valentines day. So once again, I shall enter a reflective mood as I notice how fast time is passing by
4 years ago
In 2004. I was as carefree as ever. Bought a panty wrapped like a rose for my platonic friend Isabelle. It caused a big hoohaa when the class realised what it was (after passing through the mouth of countless boys ;) ) Other than that, I really enjoyed it with my first 3 months class in ACJC at NYDC. We were all so carefree.
3 years ago
In 2005. Silly, dissillusioned and slightly romantic. I placed a neatly organised box of rice paper, rose petals cookies and a personal poem under my crush; Audrey's desk. It didn't work out and the aftershocks of this rejection got dragged out over the next 6 months. But it got better in the end :) That year, I learnt about being rejection and hurt under the most humiliating circumstances.
2 years ago
in 2006. Smelly, sweaty, muddy and bald. I was a disorientated recruit crawling and sweating in the jungles of Pulau Tekong for my Situational Test (SITTEST). The results in this eventually selected me into Officer Cadet School, but I was too involved in the moment to actually notice the importance. I went around telling my friends I had a date, then flashing my 'date-flavoured fruit bar' from my CRs. I would have been clobbered if we all werent exhausted.
Last Year
in 2005. I was pushing my recruits to pass their IPPT (individual physical proficiency test), got psyched up over them performing, then took the nights out due to exhaustion. I felt content due to my recruits and it felt refective for me as I was on the other side of the Army Life. Sadly, however, not everyone passed the IPPT in the end. I was happy and contented with my first batch of recruits nonetheless. I'm also very proud to say that my fire NEVER died out.
This Year.
At last minute, I was placed on off from my job. I decided to celebrate V-day with my family so I bought and prepared lots of gifts. Gave my mommy a very nice card, my dad a bottles of 'get-rid-of-ur-beer-belly' pills and a bottle of 'get-over-ur hangover' pills. :) I also spent it with you...in a slightly unconventional way. This is also the first time, I'm not sending out celebratory smses. :)
Speaking of Jobs.
Just for a update, I have been released from my NS liabilities since last December. After taking a break of one month, I found myself a job in the Singapore Zoo as a show presenter. Yes, this is something I am very proud of, as the Singapore Zoo is ranked among the Top 3 to Top 5 Zoos in the world *smirk*.
So... after an interview/audition I was selected along with 2 others, jieyu and Karmilah. We then went through... a very long On-job-training that lasted 2 bloody long weeks in which we cleaned and prepared food for certain animals in the show department, crammed loads of scripts as well as a somewhat... demoralising script training.... Finally after 2 weeks of probation presentation, I will finally be officially independent as of tmr! ^_^
>>>>part II <<<<<
PRIMAL INSTINCTS
But I've been thinking of a few things during work. One is my reflections of NS, the other is this.
The difference between Humans and animals.
My whole chain of thoughts started off in a casual conversations between, me, Karmilah and a senior zoo keeper while we were with the proboscis monkeys. My friend commented that she wish she was an animal, who doesnt need to come to work. Then the zookeeper looked at us and smiled as he said... what makes us think that animals don't go to work?
Its true. In more ways than one, We Humans are identical to animals. For example, we go to work to earn money, secure a living, find a lover, work for a pay-rise or promotion. The same is said for animals, even those in the zoo. With the problem of food solved, living IS actually their job.
Every morning, animals wake up to their clans/ groups. They may/ may not need to look for food but they need still secure many other things. Dominant males need to do regular checks on their females, make sure the other males in the clan are subordinate to him. There is so much stress, thinking of who might be coming up to challenge him in power. As for those non-alpha males... they look on to think... whether should they join the Alpha male but remain always at no.2 or should they take the gamble and overthrow him? Am i strong enough? what are the risks? Should I expand my territories? Am I getting too old, when would I get overthrown?
I'm not sure who told me long ago? But Humans are the only animals which would happilly kill one another. Well the person who said that clearly doesnt have a good knowledge of animals. Almost all species kill each other for dominance or even cannabilism food. In fact, the more 'developed' the species, the more frequent these geonocides occurs. When a new male lion takes over a pride, he performs a genocide on all the cubs, to ensure his bloodline is dominant. Teenage dolphins form cliques and gang up on socially awkward youngs, murder is not uncommon. Chimps kill intruder chimps. They even form hunting parties to hunt down monkeys in the trees for meat, even though they dont require (like humans) meat in their diet.
War, murder, is therefore not really a corruption of the Human mind. It is actually a magnification of our primal instincts. We Humans, are in reality, just as savage, as any animals on the planet. On a reversed view; all animals are therefore, just as civilised as us. Perhaps that is why, Man created Law and morals, so that we can tell ourselves that we are worth better the creatures around us.
We are, afterall , a very proud race , arrogance runs in our blood. As such, we need to convince ourselves that we are different, if not ABOVE, the other creatures on the planet. The same mentality can be seen squabbling in our own subspecies in the form of racism. We percieve ourselves as God's special creation... or the FINAL and latest product of evolution. (see? eitherways, Religionist or scientist, we are snobs) The funny thing is... all because we can multiply and rule over the planet, why are we any better? Although we are intellectually more sophisticated ( or so we deduce), we have forsaked so much in the evolutionary traits of strength, speed, lethality and agility. So... perhaps, we therefore exert our dominance by numbers... then what about insects? or germs? Before this opens up into another can of worms, I'll end it off here.
Are we really any different from animals? Putting our species-pride aside, are we really above the rest? We've been brought up to think that way... but let us take a second thought. :)
So Happy Valentines everyone.
Valentines day has always been a very significant date for me and suprisingly enough, it is the first Valentines day in which I'm not working. I've noticed that I have blogged consistently, and thus, I have captured my frame of mind every valentines day. So once again, I shall enter a reflective mood as I notice how fast time is passing by
4 years ago
In 2004. I was as carefree as ever. Bought a panty wrapped like a rose for my platonic friend Isabelle. It caused a big hoohaa when the class realised what it was (after passing through the mouth of countless boys ;) ) Other than that, I really enjoyed it with my first 3 months class in ACJC at NYDC. We were all so carefree.
3 years ago
In 2005. Silly, dissillusioned and slightly romantic. I placed a neatly organised box of rice paper, rose petals cookies and a personal poem under my crush; Audrey's desk. It didn't work out and the aftershocks of this rejection got dragged out over the next 6 months. But it got better in the end :) That year, I learnt about being rejection and hurt under the most humiliating circumstances.
2 years ago
in 2006. Smelly, sweaty, muddy and bald. I was a disorientated recruit crawling and sweating in the jungles of Pulau Tekong for my Situational Test (SITTEST). The results in this eventually selected me into Officer Cadet School, but I was too involved in the moment to actually notice the importance. I went around telling my friends I had a date, then flashing my 'date-flavoured fruit bar' from my CRs. I would have been clobbered if we all werent exhausted.
Last Year
in 2005. I was pushing my recruits to pass their IPPT (individual physical proficiency test), got psyched up over them performing, then took the nights out due to exhaustion. I felt content due to my recruits and it felt refective for me as I was on the other side of the Army Life. Sadly, however, not everyone passed the IPPT in the end. I was happy and contented with my first batch of recruits nonetheless. I'm also very proud to say that my fire NEVER died out.
This Year.
At last minute, I was placed on off from my job. I decided to celebrate V-day with my family so I bought and prepared lots of gifts. Gave my mommy a very nice card, my dad a bottles of 'get-rid-of-ur-beer-belly' pills and a bottle of 'get-over-ur hangover' pills. :) I also spent it with you...in a slightly unconventional way. This is also the first time, I'm not sending out celebratory smses. :)
Speaking of Jobs.
Just for a update, I have been released from my NS liabilities since last December. After taking a break of one month, I found myself a job in the Singapore Zoo as a show presenter. Yes, this is something I am very proud of, as the Singapore Zoo is ranked among the Top 3 to Top 5 Zoos in the world *smirk*.
So... after an interview/audition I was selected along with 2 others, jieyu and Karmilah. We then went through... a very long On-job-training that lasted 2 bloody long weeks in which we cleaned and prepared food for certain animals in the show department, crammed loads of scripts as well as a somewhat... demoralising script training.... Finally after 2 weeks of probation presentation, I will finally be officially independent as of tmr! ^_^
>>>>part II <<<<<
PRIMAL INSTINCTS
But I've been thinking of a few things during work. One is my reflections of NS, the other is this.
The difference between Humans and animals.
My whole chain of thoughts started off in a casual conversations between, me, Karmilah and a senior zoo keeper while we were with the proboscis monkeys. My friend commented that she wish she was an animal, who doesnt need to come to work. Then the zookeeper looked at us and smiled as he said... what makes us think that animals don't go to work?
Its true. In more ways than one, We Humans are identical to animals. For example, we go to work to earn money, secure a living, find a lover, work for a pay-rise or promotion. The same is said for animals, even those in the zoo. With the problem of food solved, living IS actually their job.
Every morning, animals wake up to their clans/ groups. They may/ may not need to look for food but they need still secure many other things. Dominant males need to do regular checks on their females, make sure the other males in the clan are subordinate to him. There is so much stress, thinking of who might be coming up to challenge him in power. As for those non-alpha males... they look on to think... whether should they join the Alpha male but remain always at no.2 or should they take the gamble and overthrow him? Am i strong enough? what are the risks? Should I expand my territories? Am I getting too old, when would I get overthrown?
I'm not sure who told me long ago? But Humans are the only animals which would happilly kill one another. Well the person who said that clearly doesnt have a good knowledge of animals. Almost all species kill each other for dominance or even cannabilism food. In fact, the more 'developed' the species, the more frequent these geonocides occurs. When a new male lion takes over a pride, he performs a genocide on all the cubs, to ensure his bloodline is dominant. Teenage dolphins form cliques and gang up on socially awkward youngs, murder is not uncommon. Chimps kill intruder chimps. They even form hunting parties to hunt down monkeys in the trees for meat, even though they dont require (like humans) meat in their diet.
War, murder, is therefore not really a corruption of the Human mind. It is actually a magnification of our primal instincts. We Humans, are in reality, just as savage, as any animals on the planet. On a reversed view; all animals are therefore, just as civilised as us. Perhaps that is why, Man created Law and morals, so that we can tell ourselves that we are worth better the creatures around us.
We are, afterall , a very proud race , arrogance runs in our blood. As such, we need to convince ourselves that we are different, if not ABOVE, the other creatures on the planet. The same mentality can be seen squabbling in our own subspecies in the form of racism. We percieve ourselves as God's special creation... or the FINAL and latest product of evolution. (see? eitherways, Religionist or scientist, we are snobs) The funny thing is... all because we can multiply and rule over the planet, why are we any better? Although we are intellectually more sophisticated ( or so we deduce), we have forsaked so much in the evolutionary traits of strength, speed, lethality and agility. So... perhaps, we therefore exert our dominance by numbers... then what about insects? or germs? Before this opens up into another can of worms, I'll end it off here.
Are we really any different from animals? Putting our species-pride aside, are we really above the rest? We've been brought up to think that way... but let us take a second thought. :)
posted by F I S at
7:19 pm
2/02/2008
To Love
Love is not a word I use cheaply or freely. But this post, is dedicated to you my Love. Today is the 26th of July 2008. Its been a fantastic 6 months that we have been together. The reason why I am chrono-hiding this post on this date and time, is that this is the precise moment we got together. It meant everything to me. As a Christian, I am not supposed to say that, but you meant everything to me, despite my attempt at being politically correct, I did place you on a higher pedestal than God in my life.
If I had given you the link to this entry, the reason is obvious. Remember I delayed and stalled the first time you suggested we break it off? Its not because I am in denial of our failing relationship, I just need some time to accept these overwhelming emotions. More importantly, I need to say what I have to before we actually part. After all the horrible events happening in HK yesterday, I've come to realise how fragile and in critical danger our relationship is. From now... every moment we share is a blessing for it may be our last, Wall-E that we're about to watch may be our last. If it is, I am at peaces that I went for it knowing of this possibility.
Hopefully, by now, if we have broken up... I have had said everything I needed to. If not... Sabrina Jensen, you are truly the first girl I dare to say that I have loved. You always tend to feel guilty that I am nice to you while you aren't to me. But that is not true, I enjoyed every moment that we spent together as a couple. Be it smiling, holding hands, talking about our future or disagreeing, being ignored by you, I savoured every moment of it, bitter and sweet.
It is true that you do have your faults, and I do not overlook how I find you emotionally selfish at times. But its also those traits that make you who you are.
If there was one thing that I did regret, is that I spent so much time and effort trying to make you happy that I myself did not sit down and actually think about what you needed; Space, time and understanding.
Perhaps, if I had given you those... perhaps, things would have turned out differently. Maybe I was too serious too soon right from the beginning. But even this moment which I am preserving online, my heart is with you. I try not to boast or to talk abt it... but I really am willing to move to HK for you. For you, I am willing to give up everything I am familiar with singapore for the simple fact that creating new hopeful memories is much easier than forgetting bad old ones. I hope with that same mindset we can move on... and progress from our current state.
You always like to ask, why am I so hopeful? It's because I believe in dreams. For some reason, though my life is filled with much nonsense and irrelevant things, there are only a few things that I am concerned and focused about. Of the very little things I care about, you have always remained very clear in my mind. I do hope that we met at a more convenient circumstance. For all the inconvenience and pain that our long distance relationship posed, it was worth it to me, every single one bit.
Should we really have parted... I want to say that you are the Best I ever had. I still remember the promise you forced me to make with you shortly after we got together. That I would never break your heart. I really wished I never did. You really did mean a lot to me. Long ago, before we got together, I always joked that only you, will be my darling. I will keep that statement, and it will be a term I reserve solely for you. But I do want you to promise me something else.
I want you to promise me that you will be strong too, stronger than me. Walk away from this and make this a clean break no matter how emotionally distraught or annoying I may be. A clean break may be the only thing that will make things better at this point of time.
and maybe, just maybe in the future IF the time and world is more right, we can be together again. Maybe when we are 35 years old. But until then. Please be stronger than me. I love you.
-Love now and forever
P(iggy)eds
26.07.08
18:00 (1 hr before Wall-E)
If I had given you the link to this entry, the reason is obvious. Remember I delayed and stalled the first time you suggested we break it off? Its not because I am in denial of our failing relationship, I just need some time to accept these overwhelming emotions. More importantly, I need to say what I have to before we actually part. After all the horrible events happening in HK yesterday, I've come to realise how fragile and in critical danger our relationship is. From now... every moment we share is a blessing for it may be our last, Wall-E that we're about to watch may be our last. If it is, I am at peaces that I went for it knowing of this possibility.
Hopefully, by now, if we have broken up... I have had said everything I needed to. If not... Sabrina Jensen, you are truly the first girl I dare to say that I have loved. You always tend to feel guilty that I am nice to you while you aren't to me. But that is not true, I enjoyed every moment that we spent together as a couple. Be it smiling, holding hands, talking about our future or disagreeing, being ignored by you, I savoured every moment of it, bitter and sweet.
It is true that you do have your faults, and I do not overlook how I find you emotionally selfish at times. But its also those traits that make you who you are.
If there was one thing that I did regret, is that I spent so much time and effort trying to make you happy that I myself did not sit down and actually think about what you needed; Space, time and understanding.
Perhaps, if I had given you those... perhaps, things would have turned out differently. Maybe I was too serious too soon right from the beginning. But even this moment which I am preserving online, my heart is with you. I try not to boast or to talk abt it... but I really am willing to move to HK for you. For you, I am willing to give up everything I am familiar with singapore for the simple fact that creating new hopeful memories is much easier than forgetting bad old ones. I hope with that same mindset we can move on... and progress from our current state.
You always like to ask, why am I so hopeful? It's because I believe in dreams. For some reason, though my life is filled with much nonsense and irrelevant things, there are only a few things that I am concerned and focused about. Of the very little things I care about, you have always remained very clear in my mind. I do hope that we met at a more convenient circumstance. For all the inconvenience and pain that our long distance relationship posed, it was worth it to me, every single one bit.
Should we really have parted... I want to say that you are the Best I ever had. I still remember the promise you forced me to make with you shortly after we got together. That I would never break your heart. I really wished I never did. You really did mean a lot to me. Long ago, before we got together, I always joked that only you, will be my darling. I will keep that statement, and it will be a term I reserve solely for you. But I do want you to promise me something else.
I want you to promise me that you will be strong too, stronger than me. Walk away from this and make this a clean break no matter how emotionally distraught or annoying I may be. A clean break may be the only thing that will make things better at this point of time.
and maybe, just maybe in the future IF the time and world is more right, we can be together again. Maybe when we are 35 years old. But until then. Please be stronger than me. I love you.
-Love now and forever
P(iggy)eds
26.07.08
18:00 (1 hr before Wall-E)
posted by F I S at
12:02 am