From Dusk Till Dawn (One-to-Five)

From dusk, I turned and roused
My heart is in tripple pulse
I wish both my eyes could see
Missing the Stage in Misery

I scan the phone I am holding
When I hear your laughter echoing
You clearly as I see my hand
Which behind the snow you dance and stand

My emptied inbox I cleared and forged,
Right next door past the lodge
Tracing Upon the fishtank glass
If you see the clues, please at last

All done for you to send
Wall to follow you in twists and bend
To the jungle from you am I torn
Know I wait forever for you,forever till dawn.

Leaving on a Jet plane

I will be leaving for OCIP on Saturday to Kapit, Sarawak for 2 weeks. So I'll just leave this behind: (poem)

To all my drama friends:
ALL THE BEST FOR SNOW QUEEN PRODUCTION!!! So sorry I can't see final product of your hard work and practice... but I wish you guys all the best


smile smile and be cool *hur hur*

What happened to the Sun?

After the sudden deaths of 2 of my catfishes, I have been forced to quarantine all my potentially dangerous catfishes once again. But what next?

I had my fill keeping, raising and most importantly watching my catfishes grow the past 3 years. But I guess it is about time to release them. I mean even though they are far from their full adult size, I think that confining them within four glass walls is a serious hinderence to their growth. Afterall, I read somewhere that parenting is not about keeping but is about letting go.

I will let them go by Thursday. I will miss those suckers. I still remember when i bought them at 5 cm each at the beggining of 2002... I will post a few final photos of them prior to their release.
Speaking of photos, I actually had an air-brushed photo of dead Sunny with Cory in its mouth... But no, its seriously too grotesque.

Anyway, now on to myself. Weird as it sounds, I have been very very very troubled lately and I completely have no idea why. I feel as if there is an empty void inside of me ,I dont feel like my heart is torn out, but more like a slow sinking motion. bah. INcoherent. My friend told me its probably something bothering me subconsciously, but I cant figure anything out.

I went out with Kevin today for Sushi and we caught up a lot. YEs, Yo Albino! All The best for your promos results tml! Don't scream too loud, you'll disturd the toliet janitors...

Sunny Side Up

My life is sad (stop)

My 1-year albino corydoras died (stop)

It got eaten by my Sun-sided Catfish (stop)

Sunny then choked and died (stop)

My life is very sad (period)

Princess Dairies

I went out with Dree today for dinner at Long John's and Princess Diaries 2. Thanks Dree, I really enjoyed the evening! ^_^ However, she addressed me so many times as 'brown cow' that I think that the word 'Princess Dairies' kept popping in my head.
As it was Deepavali, it was crowded (like duh), leaving us cramped in the middle of the 5th row from the screen. As we were so engorssed in our Long John Silvers, we both ended up coming in late and hence we ended up squeezing through the crowded cinema rows... ooh so embarassing. Then, we realised we had no popcorn, and so we squeezed out again.... bought popcorn and squeezed back in. Baaaahhh, I feel like an embarassed glutton.

Although I admit to being bimbolised (or more correctly himbolised) by the movie, it was actually very sweet and i am very sure I could have enjoyed it much more if I wasn't so stoned...
Speaking of stoned, an unexpected phone call from my best friend in the middle of my evening completely balled me into the stoning mood. Apparently, he had thoughts about returning to the AC 'heritage'. This kind of kicked off these consolidations of thoughts i have been collecting all this while regarding the 'AC' culture.
What precisely is this whole AC name that everyone I know find so revering? Is it a less academically-honed alternative to the Raffles family? Is it simply a brand name like 'Prada' or 'Mango'? Maybe it is something greater, like an eternal brotherhood forged by loyalty and friendship? Or worse... maybe it is just a low-brow merchandise like 'BATA' which for some reason everyone percieves as a exceptional good like 'Timberland'?
Of course, within this mere blog, I offer no revelations or enlightenment to you asI, myself have yet to discover its meaning. I have yet to reach the end of my journey along this AC paved brick road, maybe (just maybe) I'll pick up bits of understanding here and there, but until then I still continue to adhere to my roots and continue my duties.
Whatever is the true meaning and value of AC is, I still believe it is completely independent from the concepts of personal success, love and identity. One cannot assume that AC can subsitute or even replace these. Success, Love and of course... Identity are all things that every single individual creates for himself/herself. They are unqiue, specially suited for the individual. It is not like a .... blog template in which you can obatin well-prepared blog-entry boxes, swanky link columns simply by just applying it to yourself. We are humans, not blogs.
Whatever it is, I just want to tell you that if you expect to find success, love and identity as complementary rewards simply by placing a brand name over yourself... you are severely deluded. In fact, if you open your eyes and look carefully into the mirror after cleasning your face each morning, you'll find that the only things you'll ever need is not a swanky brand name, but simply yourself and God.

Cheero buddy!

I should think more happy thought, haa.... Princess diaries.... I think I am begining to see an echo when the Queen says 'Shut Up' hahha

TISM: Everyone else has had ....

Bunny

Best Things

Best Things come in normal packages. I cannot help looking at normal things.

Night train

Taking the Night mono-rail, so tacky-pretty.

wow

Ball

Volley-volley Exclusive: Neha's Shot!

Romantic

Island Life. I found my new hotspot.

Water, Sun and Orange

Just felt like posting this pic up. Before the internet shuts off.

Survey

Survey from a Friend's blog.
x. my father thinks i am : Ineffecient
x. my mother thinks i am : I dunno.
x. your three best qualities : AHAHahaHAH
x. three worst qualities : Stupid-Buffalo, slow, Fat-ass
x. three things you are often complimented for : AHAHahaHAH
x. a compliment you got that made you blush:
x. what makes you happy: Why should I tell you?
x. upsets you : Dissapointments, constraints
x. you keep a diary : yup. Maybe I should start to write in it.
x. you like to cook : Yes. Love it.
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone : of course.
x. you fold your underwear : Maid does it.
x. you talk in your sleep : How am I supposed to know when I'm sleeping?
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead : Yes.
x. you believe in love : Not between humans.
x. movie you rented : Treasure Planet. 'YArrr... JeeeembooO HaaRhwkeens!"
x. movie you bought : Le Triplets De Bellevile
x. song you listened to : Immediate Music, Blasphemy
x. song that was stuck in your head : Purple Pills. have no idea why.
x. song you've downloaded : ......National Geographic Theme song.next qn?
x. CD you bought : Disney 2-CD Collection.
x. CD you listened to : Disney Collection
x. person you've called : Audrey Low. (hi-low, *hur hur*)
x. person that's called you : Father
x. TV show you've watched : Teen Titans *Hai
x. person you were thinking of : Bebo & Pink
x. you wish you could live somewhere else : nope.
x. you think about suicide : yup, we all do.
x others find you attractive : AHAHahaHAH. Who doesn't? I'm dead Sexxy....*Irish accent*
x. you want more piercings : No
x. you want more tattoos : No
x. you drink : Liquids? What kind of qn is this?
x. you do drugs : Panadol *hurhur*----silence
x. you like cleaning : YES.
x. you like roller coasters: No, waste of adrelaline. I'll save them up for when the rabid dogs attack
x. you write in cursive or print: Print. Print only.
x. you have a crush on somebody: Aww gee... don't Pressure me with this qn.
x. ever cried over a boy/girl : yes, both cases.
x. perfume/cologne do you use : nope
x. of times you have been in love : Don't think any of them were really love.
x. of times you have had your heart broken : Many?
x. of hearts you have broken : I dont know?
x. of people you consider your enemies : none
x. Number of CDs' that you own : Quite some.
With The Opposite Sex...?:
x. what do you notice first : huh?
x. last person you slow danced with : Isabel, haha 'xept it wasn't really dance. more like swaggering to be precise
Who...?:
x. makes you laugh : Random things
x. makes you smile : Fish. Growth actually.
x. do you have a crush on : Nice try.
x. has a crush on you : Who doesn't have a crush on me? C'mon!
x. is the easiest to talk to : Kevin, Best Albino Friends are easy to talk to as they are so fair.

Uncle

OH I feel Sooo BAd. Seriously baad.
Ok here goes: This morning I was shopping in a fish store for fishfood. Same-o Same-o, usual stuff. Suddenly this little boy came up to me and starting asking me about the prices of the turtles and fishes. He thought I was the owner.
I mean I don't find being mistaken as a dreggy fish-store owner as a bad thing... but ... but.... he called me 'Uncle'.
I mean, 'ge-ge' would be very fine, but ' Uncle' ? Oh no... I'm ageing so badly. Oh wait... maybe its my dress code. yeah. But I am sure by simply wearing slippers, I won't really look like an uncle right? Oh, my sister was right all along, I really really do need a complete makeover. and new sneakers.

Other than being an 'uncle', today was really quite a happy day. With all those exams out of the way, I finally had the free time to tend to my fishes after almost 3 months of neglect. I scrubbed out all the algae, emptied the quarantined fishes back into the community tank and (once again) made my special 'pedro-fish-blend' food. A carefully cut-up and grounded mix of flakes, tubliflex worms and shrimpls. Ohh I feel so domestic just grounding these things up . :) :) :)

Another thing I kind of achieved was basically what my aspirations should be. I mean I have always been living a kind of 'drifter-like' life, going to school and taking subjects without any goals in mind. Yup, after my visit to the musuem on Friday (See earlier ) I finally know something I might enjoy doing for a living.
Catching and naming animals. I don't know. I have never been a sucker for money and I don't want my life to be confined within a cubicle, so I suppose going out the jungles and trying to find new species wouldnt be that bad. Besides, it can go hand in hand with my old dream of being a cryptozoologist (those funny people that go out looking for bigfoot and such). I'll probably die single though. haha. oh well, at least I have plenty more private space to ground and mash more fish food. :):):)



must be the post-exams high.

Meow

Smile Of a Bear-cat. Didn't know they even existed.

C Cancerians

Raffles Museum Of Biodiversity Research Centre. OCIP.
Let us marvel at the beauty of bones and bodies.
I so want to work here when I grow up :D

Purple Hills

Upkeeping of the Rugby Field,
Now you know where the money goes.

I spy...

I spy with my little eye...

OGL results

Yup, tomorrow's the big day for the OGL applicants... yup yup.

As I am not a Head OGL, I have completely no rights to announce any form of results. However, I would say that this year's OGLs are really really interesting...yup. up to one quarter is from Arts, and I suppose thats a good thing.

Shutters.... They're everywhere...