Resolution 2006

It's going to be a new Morning, so let us forget the Late Nights.

In an innocent world, there is no need for worship for we are all one with God. To merely live in it, is worship in itself. However, when Fate intervenes, the straight path that outlines our lives meanders and curves around the onset of chances and circumstances. We stray off the line of guidance implanted within us. People then begin to worship in hopes of reorientating themselves apart from the spin of the Earth's serenade.
I am human, thus I need to worship. Contrary to popular belief, I do not think that worshipping is confined to being a religious activity. Morals is a form of worship in itself and it itself proves my point. I am human too, and thus, I need to worship.
Now is a crucial time, more than ever, that I need to be close to God, My God. Fate will intervene in my life. Tomorrow, I will be enlisting. It seems so sudden and surreal but I suppose it all happens sooner or later. With this intervention, change will occur and I am afraid of change.
I am not saying that I am innocent for I am certainly not But I am afraid of loosing my last few shreds whatever that is left I made a collage of photos of myself, my friends and other aspects of my life. ( kept neatly in my room) I was hoping that it would keep me grounded but I realise these pathetic pigments of colour would fade with time as would my footings. Now, I know God is the only way. I know I am still slightly confused and hesistant about you all the years, but my instinct tells me that you are the only way left.
You are not God. Yet you remind me a lot of him through your actions. I want to thank God too for this friendship and if things ever turn out for the worst, Please slap me. I mean it.
It seems so easy to just let everything go to the world. There are so many things it could grant me; large company of friends, a good love life, a good rank, an exciting life. But then again...

I would prefer my lifeline to be simple straight mark.


And so: The year before last, I made a long list of new year resolutions few of which were accomplished. Last Year, I made a resolution to have no resolution and leave everything to God. This year trusting God IS my resolution.