Not now please

No, this cannot happen now, not now.
I wish to save you, but I just cannot and I see you slipping away. I want to kill you, not out of rage but out of mercy. But I can't. I want to save you... Take you out and give you your salt bath. Treat the pH and cure your illness... but not now... I can't. You are dying right before my very eyes and I can't do anything.
I feel that it is my wrongdoing that this occured to you. It is my neglect.