Conflict
Conflicts and cornflakes. One is nutritious, the other is poisonous.
Conflicts are inevitable, they happen and they cannot be contained. What is sad, however, is not the extent of the damage in which conflict can incur, but the somewhat perverse longing in man for them. I try I try I try to abstain from creating and fueling the inferno affairs around me. Yet, I still see the twisted, subtle nature of people to hold her golden apple. Today, I shall address 3 prominent people in my life lately;
T, C , L
To T:
You flare up. You are pissed off that noone in the world gives a crap about you. You are angsted up that even your classmates pick on you. You wished the world revolved around you, don't you?
You think that it is all about you... when ironically, it is really all about you.
On the behalf on 2AA2, I would apologise insincerely for all the times we reminded you not to throw away your life.
To C:
I still stick by my earlier stand that you are not the one for her. It is nothing personal, but its simply the view from where I am standing. Yet, within the course of the past month, you have truly proven yourself, as you have promised. Perhaps, not yet as a suitor, but certainly as someone who deserves a much more decent degree of respect and dignity.
It takes an ape to throw a chair against the wall, but it takes a man to give up pride to apologise.
I respect that. Notice that I chose to differentiate an apology from 'saying sorry'. There is the difference of sincerity.
To L:
Sometimes I look back at the previous year and ponder where I went wrong. Today, a track in Switchfoot told me the answer. I was blaming myself all along and making you seem like a victim. I am able to separate the different aspects of my life very clearly and there have not been one single moment in which I blurred the line between friendship and courtship. You said that you feel awkward-- I hope you are sincere about it, because all the tension you probably observed were all conjurations of your own imagination. Isn't it ironic, how you are using an invalidated excuse to void me of the slightest respect and dignity? The only apology that I would give you, however, is how a few mere months doesn't re-orientate me like all the other pathetic boys you have encountered. Sorry~ I don't treat relationships like a hunt or a game.
If you have read these extracts carefully, you would realise the ironical truth that respect, frienship, self-validation are intimately intertwined with conflict. On a lighter note, perhaps assexuality is the truest and most peaceful way of existence. Yongxi claims that it is a bad trade off in the long-run (LR), but I don't think so. Think about it.
Conflicts are inevitable, they happen and they cannot be contained. What is sad, however, is not the extent of the damage in which conflict can incur, but the somewhat perverse longing in man for them. I try I try I try to abstain from creating and fueling the inferno affairs around me. Yet, I still see the twisted, subtle nature of people to hold her golden apple. Today, I shall address 3 prominent people in my life lately;
T, C , L
To T:
You flare up. You are pissed off that noone in the world gives a crap about you. You are angsted up that even your classmates pick on you. You wished the world revolved around you, don't you?
You think that it is all about you... when ironically, it is really all about you.
On the behalf on 2AA2, I would apologise insincerely for all the times we reminded you not to throw away your life.
To C:
I still stick by my earlier stand that you are not the one for her. It is nothing personal, but its simply the view from where I am standing. Yet, within the course of the past month, you have truly proven yourself, as you have promised. Perhaps, not yet as a suitor, but certainly as someone who deserves a much more decent degree of respect and dignity.
It takes an ape to throw a chair against the wall, but it takes a man to give up pride to apologise.
I respect that. Notice that I chose to differentiate an apology from 'saying sorry'. There is the difference of sincerity.
To L:
Sometimes I look back at the previous year and ponder where I went wrong. Today, a track in Switchfoot told me the answer. I was blaming myself all along and making you seem like a victim. I am able to separate the different aspects of my life very clearly and there have not been one single moment in which I blurred the line between friendship and courtship. You said that you feel awkward-- I hope you are sincere about it, because all the tension you probably observed were all conjurations of your own imagination. Isn't it ironic, how you are using an invalidated excuse to void me of the slightest respect and dignity? The only apology that I would give you, however, is how a few mere months doesn't re-orientate me like all the other pathetic boys you have encountered. Sorry~ I don't treat relationships like a hunt or a game.
If you have read these extracts carefully, you would realise the ironical truth that respect, frienship, self-validation are intimately intertwined with conflict. On a lighter note, perhaps assexuality is the truest and most peaceful way of existence. Yongxi claims that it is a bad trade off in the long-run (LR), but I don't think so. Think about it.
posted by F I S at
8:20 pm
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