Crap

I feel like ____.
I have failed miserably as a parent. I totally ____ed up my duties and responsibilities. Ignorance and neglect have made me hurt the very one person I truly love with all my heart. Damn, I am such a fool!
Day before yesterday, while I was at council camp, Clarice tried to escape by jumping out. (maybe cause she wasn't happy with me) She hit the hard cover and dislocated her neck.
Should I describe it out for you? Head bone plate pushed out, jabbing through your flesh, tearing out a gushing wound in the one spot that you can't touch. Now you know how she feels. Although she survived, she can never lift her proud head high ever again (her dissolcated neck forces her head down).
I refused accept she's grown up. I refused to acknowledge that she needs freedomn. I refused to let her go. I make a ___ed parent