Rocking Chair

I am worried.
I am worried about my promos, that my recurring nightmares will come true.
I am worried that like in my dreams, I will fail. (Except this time, I won't wake up)
I am worried that I will have to take the probationals.
I am worried that I will get kicked out of Orientation.
I am worried that in Orientation, I will let down the school, council and me.
I am worried that I will fail probationals and get retained and get kicked out of council.
I am worried over my Sarawak OCIP, that I will not enjoy it there.
I am worried about my Hong Kong Exchange programme selection.
I am worried that the board will turn me away due to my one day clash with Sarawak OCIP.
I am worried that should I be selected, I'll be going to HK alone.
I am worried that I will once again be rejected, just like last time, and the time before that.
I am worried.


I wish a unknown car could knock me down, I wish I could slip down the NL and break my legs. I wish that in an instance, all my worries and woes would end. I wish that I was not worried.


*pardon my sulking mood, I would like to wish my friends at training camp all the best.