Bunn Niao Xian Fei

Bunn Niao Xian Fei:: Stupid Birds has to Fly first to keep up.

This was the first Chinese Idiom I read after I recieved my horrible O level results. This in fact,has been my inspiration for my buffalo-like working attitude this entire year. Ironically, despite my efforts to compensate my natural-born stupidity, my sweat and toils have morphed back into the very thing I tried to run away from. Yes. I screwed up my promos. Another major exam gone down the drain.
Watching with eyes wide open, how my papers flowed away made me realise something. A revelation, a snap of reality, a stroke of realisation:
I have always known that I am stupid (hence the stupid bird), however, I never expected myself to be THIS stupid. It was so insulting of me to even refer myself to the high-flying birds. At least they were flying in the correct direction.
Perhaps in retrospect, I'm a fucking buffallo (^_^). Yes, a stupid ... cow like what my geography teacher called me. A freaking animal which stupidly moves eternally around in circles. While other people open the lecture notes the week before the exams and take a few steps forward, I have been encircling my notes for 2 months with an eventual zero displacment.
Oh man... the more I think of it the more foolish I notice myself to be. I can slap myself silly for all the dumb mistakes I made in my exam frantic thrashing. All my hopes, my dreams, and aspirations, all dashed away in an instant display of stupid. Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid bakar bakar idiot idiot idiot idiot.
I actually broke down on Friday after reaching home. I tell myself that its alright, its okay. You reap what you sow.... Bullshit! * This is BULLSHIT! Believe this advice, straight from the buffallo's mouth.

Pedro the Buffalo, Signing off
Until the stupid birds are caught up